I am so tired

I started school a few weeks ago and I am loving it. I love being a stay at home mom but it is also nice to use my mind for adult thought.
I am so tired lately. Being the mother of small children is trying at times. I feel like they gang up on me. I am so grateful that God loves me enough to carry me through from one season to another.
Cas is going to start a new job. I hope that he will be happy. I know he was not happy working with his dad. We all got to feel how unhappy he was every day after he got off of work. He was becoming verbally abusive. I turn to God in those times. Again, he is the only one that can carry me through.
I am currently into Kings in the Bible. I wish I had some of Solomons wisdom. What are the gifts God has instilled in me? What does he have planned for my life? I want to know. I am going to get ready to have my patriarichal blessing. I feel that will be the compass I need.
I really wish my brothers were living here in Idaho. They lighten my load with laughter.
I find myself saying I wish a lot. Maybe that is my problem I wish too much. I need to be more appreciative of where I am at and what I am doing now. I will focus on this and see how my spirit feels.